Grandchildren

I regret not being able to have more time with my grandchildren. I realize that not only are they growing plder so fast, so am I. I want them to remember me - good times, not me getting old and feeble. At the same time, I want to live and enjoy my husband and my pets. I lived too long in fear with an abusive husband and father. I never felt free or felt like myself. I felt inadequate as a mother. I just got tired of trying to protect them or I finally got the guts to make the change that should have taken place years ago. My children's lives then and now would have been so different had I not taken so long to leave. I fear that my son is following the same path as his father and his four sons will fall in step when they become men. tired, so tired